- if i had to name someone as my idol , it'd be her . RIP Selena Quintanilla Perez

- i bought the [ i care for you ] album that came with thee dvd and watched her videos everyday for about six monthss . i was a die hard aaliyah fan , i even remember thee day they were saying on thee radio that she died , i was on my way to my aunts crib and i believe at that time it was WBLS [ 107.5 ] that they were talking about it ... my heart broke . :( it was a loss for me . but anyways i always loved this video ... studied it down to every hand gesture and all that . lmao . i'm a dork but hey .

- this video was maddd sexy . :)

- alicia keys baby bump ?

these blogging sites are obsessed with her and beyonce being pregnant . but she deff' looks like she could be here ... idk . she's still beautiful though ..

" the only reason i hold on to the memories i have soo tight , is because they are the only thing that doesn't change when everything and everyone does ." - unknown .


we were sooo ... happy . what i felt for you ... indescribable . and the pain i feel reminiscing on our friendship , relationship , whatever you wanna call it ... tuhh' . smh . it hurts so much because it's MY fault , well ... at least thats how you see it anyway . but what hurts thee most is that it doesn't hurt you at all . you had such an impact on me and my life , that forgetting you ever fucking existed is almost as impossible as fucking explaining what water tastes like ... pshh . and, as much i would love to get it back , i know i don't have the power to make it happen . it takes two , and it doesn't look like US still matter to you soo , i'm fucked , but what sucks is that i'm still STUCK . lmao , ohh shxt that kinda rhymed lol , but forreal though . i love you and i always will , sincerely kimmybabiie .

i first heard this song in honey , the part where honey was tryna apologize to joy bryant ... and i fell in LOVE with thee guitar , i found the name of it , but it's not on limewire so i couldnt download it ... :( sadd , but i love it though .

and a couple years ago , all that matter was clothes and sneakers . i was too cool for school , my weekends was bout drinking , smoking , and partying . and thee only baby i had was my boyfriend , but i traded my j's for some heels , i'm a highschool graduate looking to major in nursing | psychology . the only parties i attend are the ones thrown in my room , and i live above the influence . and the ONLY baby i truly i have is my daughter samiya london valasquez . and as good as my life was back then ... it's NOTHiNG compared to how it is now ... ♥

doesn't really matter what the eyes are seeing

'cause i'm in love with the inner being .

and it doesn't really matter what they believe .

what matters to me is your love for me .




i used to absolutely L O V E ` this video , but what i really love is thee wordss . it's real as shxt . when people see a good looking person , with someone who doesn't isn't , people are quick to say "ohhh, they could do soo much better ." what thee fuck is better ? ohh , that's right BETTER is always the person with the better body , or the prettier smile , and thee sexiest eyes , and the nice hair , and so on ... maybe in a beauty pageant , this person is BETTER , but in a relationship ... it shouldn't mean so much . now , i'd be thee first to say there's nothing wrong with a lil eye candy . but all that glitters isn't gold riqht ? the best looking' nigguh , good be a cheater , a women beater , an addict ... anything . is he still better than the PHYSICALLY unattractive nigguh , who loves and treats their women to the best of their ability . absolutely not . - in this world its rare you find it all ... period . and , it's up to you to figure out whats important , thee looks or the personality , and if your shallow ass , is saying looks ... than you need to look a deeper . ugly or sexy , if you find someone who KNOWS what you WANT and NEED , and are looking for the same things as you , and yall can vibe with eachother , not just sexually , but mentally ... than why the fuck not? daamn , but pshh ... to each its own .. i guess .

and when i'm here , trapped in my reality and i turn on beautiful by india arie for [4:O5 ] i take a mental vacation . a vacation to the deepest part of my mind . where i'm free . where my mind isn't plagued by the stress my life brings . that's beautiful , and thats where i wanna go . but yea , that's my interpretation of the song . beautiful is a place that exists in her mind , where she can take a load off and breathe , where nothing is impossible . nothing cant be reached , that's beautiful . lol

- breaking up ... ?

when we’re on the outside looking in at a broken relationship , we’re soo quick to say “why don’t you just leave him ?” , “that couldn’t be me , i’d fuck that nigguh up” and blah blah blah… . but once you’re in the predicament it’s another story . because , love is blinding … the person you’re with could be abusive verbally , and physically … a cheater , a liar , a drug addict and we’ll still cling to the fact , that “he’s only hits me when he’s mad.” , “he’s not like that all the time.” , “he’s a nice person when he’s not high!” , or the famous “but, i love him.” but after awhile … love becomes an excuse, rather than a reason . after being in a relationship for a certain amount of time, you’re bound to get comfortable… and the thought of being alone terrifies you . or it may be the process of starting over with someone else that scares you shitless, and some people’s dignity, and self esteem was destroyed to the point that they feel no one will love them , so they might as well just stay in the relationship they’re in, no matter how damaging it may be to them . i am determined , so in relationships i go hard, and even once they start to go sour i still be tryingg hard as hell no make it work, and if i love that person enough, i will NOT give up on them . i aint no QUiTTER ! lmao . - but breaking up with someone and giving up on someone is two different things , and i’m beginning to learn the difference . sometimes, breaking up with the person you love is the best thing you can do for your relationship , so they can get themselves together on their OWN time, and they might even get it together quicker single, than they would with you pressuring them , and you’ll be able to be more at ease, being that the pressures of being in a relationship is lifted off your shoulders. lmao, it’s so easy talking about it, the hard part is actually doing it , it’s looking in the eyes of the person you love and telling them that you can’t do it anymore, and listening to them say “they’ll change” and them begging you to stay, it’s wondering if this time they’re really serious, about getting it together, or if they’re just tryna talk you off the ledge, and it’s looking in their face and leaving without knowing . most , people can make it to thee door, and might even open it, but are strong enough to actually walk out of it .. . to keep it a buck, i’m a part of the 68% percent of people who open the door, but never walk out … lmao . but i’m learning, and if i’m learning … you can too .

the next part is being broken up with … now this is easier than breaking up with someone but it hurts wayy more ! - when someone is kind up pulling themselves from the relationship, and pushing you away .. it hurts, you feel as though it’s your fault , it must be something you’re doing to make them wanna leave. and when you know you’ve given your everything and a little bit more, you feel worst, because your best isn’t enough . and then you’re left questioning whether or not you should just let them go or hold on to them … ither way you’re left hurting . because the person you has already emotionally withdrawed themself from the relationship, while you’re sitting there fighting and carrying the weight of the whole union on your back … smh , it just SOUNDS emotionally draining doesnt it? lol .

now ,to me, that’s too much work .. and i find it easier to ju not deal with relationships altogether , 5O said “this relationship shxt , is too much for me, i rather fuck , be friends and live comfortably” lmao . i run from love , but that shxt caught up to me … soo.. yeaa ,buh bye lovesss . =]

- meet hustlebunniee , ♥